When you told me that you loved me, | 1 |
I didn’t believe you | 2 |
‘cause all my friends around me, | 3 |
they told me the same thing too. | 4 |
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It wasn’t until you said this, | 5 |
that you “liked me immensely”, | 6 |
that you “more than just liked me”, | 7 |
That I began to have faith in you. | 8 |
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Those words of yours gave me hope, | 9 |
a reason, if ever, to be. | 10 |
A reason, if ever, to love again, | 11 |
to love you, ‘twas all I need. | 12 |
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And so I let myself, knowing full well | 13 |
that if it didn’t work out, I’d die. | 14 |
I gave me the go ahead to love you, with all I had; | 15 |
I placed, in you, blind trust. | 16 |
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In one day you undid what it took me | 17 |
a hundred thousand years to do; | 18 |
Those castle walls I had built around me, | 19 |
in your presence, they crumbled to dust. | 20 |
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But then, you started growing distant; | 21 |
my centre ached for why. | 22 |
I pondered, wondered, as I lay in bed; | 23 |
gleaming crystals fell from eye. | 24 |
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A night, or three, this went on, | 25 |
my questions left thoroughly unanswered. | 26 |
My friends still said “blind faith!” to me | 27 |
and with whatever strength left in me, I did. | 28 |
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Then came this one thing I dreaded the most, | 29 |
that one line, or two, you’d say | 30 |
to crush everything you’ve built me up for; | 31 |
I’d wished I’d never lived, that day. | 32 |
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You were sweet in your words, | 33 |
however painful they were to me, | 34 |
even going on about how real it was. | 35 |
Still, you couldn’t carry on. | 36 |
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I rue the day I met you, | 37 |
I rue it with all my heart. | 38 |
With all that I used to once love you. | 39 |
… But to rue, alas, I couldn’t start. | 40 |
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You went back on your promise, | 41 |
to, what, not leave me, this your love. | 42 |
You said you feared losing me so, you trembled, | 43 |
losing me, one you “loved so much”. | 44 |
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And though I hate you for building me up, | 45 |
though I hate you for crashing me down, | 46 |
for reasons unbeknown to me, | 47 |
I’m grateful for you to have let me felt loved. | 48 |
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Much as I regret it, | 49 |
Much as I detest it, | 50 |
Much as I abhor it, | 51 |
I still love you, even if just the slightest bit. | 52 |
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Woe is me for having such a huge heart. | 53 |
Woe am I to be able to love so much. | 54 |
Woe, for having you find your way into my life. | 55 |
Woe me for being unable to forget. | 56 |
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And in just 5 days you led me on | 57 |
the wildest goose chase the world had ever seen; | 58 |
A roller-coaster ride through the cosmos, | 59 |
Leaving me to pick up the pieces-es-es, alone, once more. | 60 |