I sit in this house full of sadness. The man I love is | 1 |
consumed by this madness. I stare longingly at this | 2 |
hollow shell who shoos me away austerely. | 3 |
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But I know the boy he was, when he tried that first kiss. | 4 |
I love the man he'll be, and I love the man he is. | 5 |
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He asks me how I love him, says he's dangerous. | 6 |
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It's not just you I love, It's us. | 7 |
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I told him how I felt. | 8 |
It's not about the money, or the cards you're dealt. | 9 |
It's about the shit between us that feels like gravity, | 10 |
Forgiving the depravity and sharing our reality. | 11 |
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I watch his eyes grow dim, and see the lights go out. | 12 |
He drops his head in slumber and his smoke falls to the ground. | 13 |
I pick it up and put it out and take a look around. | 14 |
I hate this energy, the silence is profound. | 15 |
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Then he's up, he's at it. He's gettin' him some more. | 16 |
My spirit breaks behind the bedroom door. | 17 |
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But I know the boy he was, when he went in for the kiss. | 18 |
I love the man he'll be, and I love the man he is. | 19 |
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I'm told to leave and I gather my things. The winds of change are blowing, who knows what they'll bring? | 20 |
I just keep waiting for the phone to ring. | 21 |
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And each time it leads to this- | 22 |
Peace, See you later, sometimes a kiss. | 23 |
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He pulls me closer promising, | 24 |
"things wont be this way forever." | 25 |
I know he can, but will he get it together? | 26 |
Will we be together? | 27 |
This is love, but what does that matter? | 28 |
It's always been love and my heart keeps gettin' shattered. | 29 |
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But I wont go. I can't leave. I just keep waiting and | 30 |
begging God Please | 31 |
Help him up off his knees and get his mind right | 32 |
He's got these demons and he's in for a fight. | 33 |
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God knows the boy he was when he leaned in for the kiss. I wonder, would God recognize this? Still, I love the man he'll be and I love the man he is. | 34 |
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I keep trying to make my goodbyes | 35 |
but it's him on my mind and tears in my eyes. | 36 |
he's on the grind and he's doin' whatever but I let it ride | 37 |
'cause deep in my chest, he feels like forever. | 38 |
But he's full of regrets and he can't let go, | 39 |
So I endure the ride and on goes the show. | 40 |