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To betray oneself
Linnac

I was sitting on my own
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looking through old diaries,
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thinking what it meant to me
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writing that.
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I winced every time
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a capital or comma
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got out of line,
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or the words ‘mature’
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or ‘responsible’ were used.
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Child of yesteryear,
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you never understood.
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I remember how I used to fear
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growing up and forgetting
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how real and long a minute was;
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how wise and honest I was,
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and how
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my past self was a person too.
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Later
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I was rooting through a paper pile,
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tugging out an old calendar,
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when tumbled-
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smelling of once upon as,
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not me forgets
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and happily never befores-
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a poem.
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Just
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a poem.
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Oh child of yesteryear,
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you never would understand.
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The stanzas jotted
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across that page,
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reminisces from a different age,
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would mean a gift to me;
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to you.
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No, me.
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I’m you?
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I couldn’t take it.
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Dear heart, child of mine,
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I knew you well and
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never toed the line about it.
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But this poem I don’t remember writing.
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This poem is but conscience-biting.
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And laurels make for
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an uncomfortable bed.
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Dear hand, appendage of mine,
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I recognise your penmanship
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but never our relationship.
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Who wrote this treasure?
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Not I. Not me.
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I cannot see.
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I could be any reader
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for all I know of its creation.
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I cannot take credit
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for its amalgamation.
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Yonder Victorian, Elizabethan,
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Stuart.
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An ancient ancestor wrote it.
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Yo sis, bro,
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Stuart.
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A younger sibling wrote it.
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I cannot betray my former self
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when my former self no longer lives.
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I say I will respect the dead
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and bury all I ever said.
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6 Feb 12

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blog with not much pulse. better to paragraph this out so that you can control your ideas, since this is only about ideas, and 'poetic-ully' the posey reader is going to think this is about shakespeare and dickens, written in a stage actor's voice -- emelyn williams doing a night of 'charles dickens recites henry the fourth part one'.
 — cadmium

nice dress, cad, but it's gone out of style. cover yourself.
 — unknown

I agree somewhat with cadmium. Although you really got me thinking and I appreciate that. Thank you for writing. Keep up the good work.
 — spaye08

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